All was good until this past few days...
Her heart is at unease.
Her mind flew to nowhere.
Her soul is throwing a tantrum.
Her body are not going with the flow.
Of all the people in this world, her loved ones keep on hurting her, bit by bit. It is happening more frequently, the inappropriate words came out of her friends' mouth, the actions did by her classmates and misunderstanding by society.
The worst thing was a foreigner came and knocked on my door. He introduced himself as 'L.O.V.E'. It was hard. It was the first time she has such feelings for a guy. A guy that she considered as one of her guy friend. She never wanted to be with a guy and to love a person so much until now. She has realised that there was nothing she could do and all of this turned her into a complete lunatic.
She suddenly had the urge to do crazy things and be random. She wanted to do things spontaneously at certain times. At other times she wanted to run and escape from this place. She went and did what her heart wanted her to do. She played in the rain and she used 'a guy' as a distraction. She didn't want to feel anything at all. She felt like running. With her true friends out of reach, she did all those stupid things.
But one night came when she had to spill it all out. It was hard opening that old rusty door of her heart. But she managed. Tears came down streaming from her eyes as she felt her heart was throbbed more deeply by seconds. It was bloody enough for her to felt it but it was even more painful to gather it all and pull it all out. She felt like half of her was taken away and naked. She had no shield at all, not even a cloth to cover her nudeness. When the root of all evil was taken out, she felt as if a mountain was lifted off her shoulders. And her body became lighter.
Advice, support and words of wisdom swept her off her feet. Her head knocked on the wall when she realised; she must NOT run, she must NOT hide. It's time to GROW UP and be INDEPENDENT. No more her right or left wings after this. No more Qorums and no more sessions. It is time for her to stand on her own feet. She learned that she must not keep it all inside and do the right thing.
This is a journey of her own. It is her path that she has chosen. Obstacles shall she faces and dreams should she carry. What lies or what may not, it is her destiny to be fulfilled. It is her future she will see. Today might she hold her wings but tomorrow there's no to be. She is all alone and that she should see. That is the journey of her own.
