That is when she knew

OMG.

She has many scandals. But none she really participated in. There was a guy. Many people say that they look alike. Remembering what Puan Zana told her- don't go for guys who look a lot like you! Hahaha...

But this one, she was really involved in. She invited him to her play. She asked him to accompany her during lunch. The thing she likes being with him is that they can talk. Really talk. And they annoy each other too. But hey, that was how they started their friendship. She wouldn't want to change that.

But, as they went deeper, she was confused. She wasn't ready for that kind of stuff. She is not a highly-committed person. She knew she wouldn't be able to offer back what he would give. She's not a typical girl who likes to text anyone frequently except for her dearest friends. She doesn't like to be awaken in the middle of the night just to answer a secret call. She loves her beauty sleep and none can stole that moment of dreaming from her.

Another thing she liked about they guy is that he also doesn't text her frequently. She needs her space. There was one time when they didn't contact each other for more than a week. Then one night he miscalled her. But she rejected it because she was focusing on her studies. She told him about it. He understood it. Thank you for that.

She is afraid. She likes him but only as a friend. Truth be told, she knew deep down inside, she was just using him as a rebound. She knew it was wrong but yet she kept lying to herself. Denying the whole truth. It was a shame and she must put a stop to this. Who is she to toy with others feelings? That is when she knew.
That is when she knew she had to stop all the nonsense.