She never thought she would open her heart for anyone. But, she did.
Why she was so afraid?
She had been hurt before. Getting attached is the easiest way to get hurt. Whenever she got close to her friends, she is vulnerable to any attack as she leaves her heart to them. Trusting them to take good care of it. Her heart is the only treasure she has. It is the most precious thing to her besides her life.
A friend once told her to forget about the pain. To just move on in her life. To just... live.
And she did. Her heart did actually. She did not realise it until she stumbled upon a pain that is killing her slowly.
She let herself indulge in friendship, to trust her friends and once again-share her heart.
It was a bumpy road. It usually is. But, with the help of her friends, she managed to come back on her feet and stand on her own. She thought-these kind of friends meant to her. True friends are hard to come by- she realised this.
In the end, when all was well, she discovered herself wrong, AGAIN. At first she couldn't feel it as she is constantly in state of denials but then it struck her. Like a cancer spreading through her lungs and veins, suffocating her with the blood of tears. All her beliefs had gone to the drain. What is this? Everything is at gone. The risk wasn't even worth it. She had lost her faith, beliefs and a friendship which she treasures the most. Making it all worse, she came up to the truth; THE HOLY TRUTH, that ; she has lost herself.
Nothing could be done to retrieve it all back.
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